How many blogs have you read about new year's resolutions? Hmmm...?
I have read several. Prior to today, I thought I was going to make a reading goal resolution and a "project" resolution. I even ran across a little spreadsheet to help me map out my entire year! I'm all about making a list of steps to help me stay on track.
Then, I went to church today. Wow! My goal to make a doll for my youngest daughter and send all of my kids to school with the best homemade valentines EVER went right out the window.
In my recent decision to make time for church and for the Lord, things in my life have been slowly shifting... my mindset is changing. Through my time in church, with my moms group, and reading Christian-themed books such as Through My Eyes by Tim Tebow, I am starting to remember that God has a purpose for me and I am searching for that purpose. {{A top 10 list of great things I learned from Tebow's book is forthcoming.}}
Today's topic in church was to search our hearts for God's purpose for ourselves. Among other things, they pointed us to
Radical by David Platt (see the video below).
So, today, I am abandoning all of my previous 2012 goals for this one main resolution... to spend 2012 searching my heart and in prayer to discover what God has in store for me... my purpose... "what I am being called to do."
Right now, on day 1 of 2012, I have a feeling that my calling is related to children. Maybe I should be a Sunday School teacher or something. When I think of leading worship for children, two thoughts come to mind: (1) where am I logistically going to find the time to do this and (2) seven years in a leadership position with scouting has me
burnt out (for lack of a better term).
On the positive side, working with children is a great way to give back to the community. Working with children is something that I am naturally good at. Working with children is something that I enjoy doing. Working with children often times allows me to participate with my own children while still in a volunteer role for others (which is a win/win situation for everyone).
I do not feel called to go on missionary trips, for example (I am not opposed to a missionary trip either), and seminary school is not shouting my name. I just feel like a volunteer role with kids and sharing God's love with them might just be where I am supposed to be.
So, stay tuned as I spend some time figuring out my purpose. I will try to keep an open mind, but I cannot fathom what else I am supposed to be doing with my time here on earth. I am not promising that my discovery will be anything
Radical (sorry David Platt) but I hope it is life altering. I know this isn't nearly as fun as following through with great crafts and food, but I feel like it is the direction I am supposed to be headed in.
What is your 2012 resolution?
Please tell me that someone here is going to be crafting or baking!!!