I hate to be so... shallow? self-absorbed??? I don't know what the word is... all I know is that I am very sad because little Lulu is sick... the real high-fever stuck-in-bed kinda sick... and she is supposed to play the lead role of "Alice" in Alice in Wonderland... starting bright and early tomorrow morning.
Yes, most girls (probably) dream of a life on stage... my Lulu is different. She really believes that she is going to be on stage... an actress... a celebrity. She talks about her "trip to stardom" on a regular basis. She has spent many summers sacrificing other things that she could be doing... so that she could get to THIS point. She is "Alice" - she is the lead role in the summer play. It is all that she has ever dreamed of... it is HERE... and she is in bed with a fever of 101.9... the last time I checked.
We went to the doctor this a.m.
She does NOT have the flu.
She does NOT have strep.
She does NOT have an ear infection.
I CAN double-up on the amount of Motrin that I have been giving her.
I just don't know what to do. I just don't know what I will say to her if she cannot get up on that stage tomorrow morning. I know that 20 years from now this moment won't matter... but to her... to this 11-year-old girl... who truly has made sacrifices to get to this point... who has dreamed about this moment for most of her life... this will be devastating to her... and that is so very sad to me.
On a side note, I never wanted her to dream of any of this or want any of this... we have tried to make her a well rounded child... soccer... ice skating... Girl Scouts... but I can't help that this is her dream... OMG - I just can't believe that this is happening.
Sorry to vent (and to be so selfish as I do realize that this is NOT the worst thing that could happen to my family).
I'm just so sad for her... today.
For now, I am going to give her a second Motrin at 11:00 - I hope that it helps...